Dear family and friends!
Some of you might know, some of you have heard and some of you might not know at all yet :
7 weeks ago I was diagnosed with breast cancer HER-2 and lesions in my liver (Metastasen in der Leber)!
Obviously I was hoping to face different challenges when I moved to South Africa in December last year, whilst starting my life together with Alwyn.
The past weeks have been the most challenging, disappointing, moving, loving, caring and hopeful in my life. Simply beyond words!
End of January I had discovered a little lump in my left breast while I was putting on my bikini before jumping into our pool. I wasn’t too worried about it, put still felt it ten days later and we decided to go to the docter. He was sceptical and after several tests, we found out it was malignant (bösartig) and aggressive.
Mum got onto the next plane and ever since she has arrived we had more than 15 appointments at several doctors . We also consulated oncologists in Germany, but quickly found out that South Africa is working with the most advanced cancer technology, and I did not want to interupt my start here and accepted the new tasks which are laying a head of me. Needless to say I stoped my job hunting, which was going quite well at at that stage. My oncologist Dr. Rieka Pienaar told me I should focus on my health first, and then on everything else. You can imagine how difficult it is for me to step down, try to relax and take some peace and quiet on my own.
In the meantime I was receiving phonecalls, sms, letters, packages, mails, flowers… you name it.. from all over the world. And I would like to thank each and everyone of you for all the kind and supportive words. Every single one of them gave me a boost of energy to fight this fight against these bad boys I am carrying inside of me. I am overwhelmed with all the support I am getting from near and far!
The docotors decided to give me chemotherapy first to kill the cells. My cancer is too advanced and I do not have a clean tissue (Gewebe), it would be dangerous to operate right now, otherwise it might spread. I am getting the chemo as well as herceptin, a kind of “bioglogical treatment”. It helps the body to build antibodies against the cancer I am carrying. It is quite a new treatment and I am on a trial. I have had my first session on Thursday 24th March and I have to go in weekly for about 3-4hrs on a drip. I had a small operation to get a port (Kateter) inserted just below my collarbone. It avoids getting these nasty broozes and it doesnt’t strain your veins that much. The drip goes through the port into my main vain. So far so good, I do feel really good. I haven’t had any side effects at all. I do not feel nausea, no diarrohea, nor have I lost my hair. Thanks to the herceptin I will most probably not loose my hair. I do feel quite tired and exhausted though and take an afternoon nap, but that is it. Isnt’t that incredible?
My doctor told me last week, that I am out of the cancer harbour now, and set my sails for the journey that lays ahead of me. I just have to take care of my spirit and mind, the rest they will do. And believe me I will do so.
Sadly my wonderful Mum has left yesterday and I would like to thank her especially for her unfailing care and support these last weeks. A Mum is a Mum, no one ever can replace her! There is just nothing more comforting like a mother’s hug!
I will keep you all updated on this blog and let you know about my progress. I am ready to fight the bad boys and will remain optimistic and positive, cause I am a Harder!